You?

My heart melts with just the sound of your cheerful laughter.
One meter… our only distance apart each other.
I always want to cross that wall,
Yet all I can do is laugh along your jokes.
I can’t bring myself to get near you,
More than what we had right now.
I envy her who can…
Who can say what she feels,
I envy her, because I am scared.
Scared to be rejected and let my heart get hurt.

                                …I want to get away from you,
                …but I can’t just get away your irresistible charm!

Oh gosh! Stupid heart, it’d fallen for the wrong guy again… you!

- December 17, 2010


"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

Untitled?

The rustle of the leaves,
The whistle of the wind,
The calmness of the sea,
The chirping of the wind,
Oh, can’t help but sigh!

Scenery of peace,
A hymn of unity…
It’s what I ever dreamed of,
It’s all I long to see.

Deep down,
I am lost in a world full of pretensions.

I hide in my heart those wish…
Those wish…

Someday, yes someday,
I can find my own serenity.

- January 07, 2011


"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

Revealed

I try to hide this feelings,
but now my heart's secret had been unsheathed.
The shield I tried to protect had been shattered.
I fear this moment,
my own smile betrayed me.
You now hold a part of my dark realm,
without thinking I thrust the last reasons in my mind...
towards you,
I let my defenses surrender.
Now, you know...
the only thing left to do is ask,
would you leave and hate me?
or accept my insane love and hold me dear to you?

- January 09, 2011


"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

A wife's Goodbye

I’m a martyr or maybe a masochist--
We live on lies,
We both hurt each other several times.
Countless times I cried,
But I don’t want to bid goodbye.

I stayed with you for so long;
Hoping you’ll change, I was wrong.
You’ve beaten my heart sadistically
With no remorse you can even smile while holding her hands.
I stay awake at bed waiting for you to go home,
While you’re lying naked on her bed.

True to what had been uttered at the first line,
I am a masochist no doubt.
I still love you,
What should I do?

Don’t blame me if I wish to end this misery.
Silently, I will leave you on her arms.
Worry not, I will not dare bother you,
Your own happiness is enough for me to smile.
Peacefully, I bid world goodbye.
I bid you goodbye, my beloved husband.
I love you!

--March 06, 2011; 11:28am

"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."