August 15, 2009


I cant remember ever feeling so fragile
this heart of mine weep inside
I consciously watch their vicious smiles
as i stumble and fall along the line

the surge of emotion overwhelm me.
As twilight approach i plead
in my heart dawn does not exist
in pain...agony prevail!

Then a Devil swiftly walk my way,
He damningly intense my agony
Yet, as i whimper in silence
He nestle me in his arms
with kisses he dried my tears
Oh, hell! How my heart melts!
But when i open my eyes...his gone.
I vaguely remember his face
But the piercing feeling remains,
My heart race as I remember.

Twilight crept and i wait
for him to cross my way again
Till that time comes
My agony is at edge
Waiting for my demonic angel to erase it.

August 13, 2009

where am I now?

When they told me that i will transfer to a new school--shame on me, but--i really cried in..i don't actually know why i weep at that time. Maybe because i don't want to leave important things friends, my classmates, my school, the people who had believe in me and stay with me when i'm feeling lost..Or maybe it is because i am afraid.. Afraid to start a new life and to meet new be in an unknown WORLD.

And true as it is..the first two weeks of my life in OLIVAREZ COLLEGE and at a new HOME had been full of fear..I am afraid to be rejected by the new society i had been force to fit in. I am afraid of what they had to say about me. Afraid that i couldn't blend in with the flow.

But what would happen to my life if i'll just continue to
sulk? So, i tried to overcome my fear and interact with the people around me.

I guess i had been wrong after i realized that i didn't need to be afraid because that's just how life should be...
We need to move on. We need to meet new people in order for us to bloom and be matured. In order for us to learn.

But the people that I had left behind wouldn't be buried in the past. They would always be a part of my life and who I am.

So where Am I right now? my new WorLD along with the memories of my life in CMCC..

[i miss my friends, i miss ferryzz whill, i miss my professors, and i miss CMCC]