LOVE LETTER

Do you know how much I hate you? of course you don’t, how are you suppose to know when you’re not even paying attention to me? gosh, bakit ba kasi kita namimiss? Bakit ba ako worried of what might have happened bad to you? to think that were over. Feeling ko kasi you always left me hanging. Yung tipong umaasa sa wala. You show me how important i am to you and then the next minute, you don’t even give a damn.

Alam mo ba… I always hope that you will change for the better. matanda ka na, you should at least be responsible. Ang playboy mo kasi eh kaya nga i keep on controlling my feeling for you, and yet here I am…hoping and praying to God na sana kahit isang sign lang that you still Love me ibigay nya.

I did’nt intend to fall for you so hard, but i just can’t help it. To think that you dont even know how much it hurts na marami akong kaagaw sayo. I keep asking myself, why is that that every guy i learned to love can’t be mine alone?! Palagi na lang na may kaagaw ako. katulad na lang ng sayo. bakit ba kasi playboy ka? God knows how much i regretted being one myself.. a “playgirl”. Hah! is this what they call KARMA?! gGrrHh… Naistress ako kakaisip sayo. I’ve done everything to forget about you even just for a minute but you keep on pestering my mind and i can’t help but think about you.

I miss your voice
I miss your laugh
i miss your thoughtfulness
i miss everything about you!!

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Dahil hindi ko talaga alam kung anong nararamdaman ko...naisipan mag-sulat ng Love Letter ng Puso ko. Nakakahiya nga eh para akong teenager ng lagay na 'to.
Teka teenager pa rin naman ako ahh..di ba??Aiy ewan!

BITTER

I don't know pero feel ko talagang mag-emote ngayong mga sandaling itey. *hikab* inaantok pa yata ako...pero nakailang hikab na ko di ko pa rin alam...di ko pa rin alam ang dahilan ng kalungkutan ko...Siya ba talaga? ..Kaya nga pinost ko na sa Facebook para maraming makarelate[ewan ko lang kung may naka-relate..]baka sakaling maintindihan ko rin why I am feeling like this...eh ako rin naman ang dahilan ng lahat...kaya lang di ko talaga alam.

[facebook status] Mahirap pala magkaroon ng Angina Pectoris kung ang etiology eh lablyp...wa epek ang nitroglycerin...
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• Laiza Mae Abarquez Cantiveros: nyAhAhAha.....loLz
• poeticveela: ..totoo naman diba..pag ang chest pain mo sanhi ng pagkasawi sa lablyp mahirap gamutin...wah..bitter!! MY GOD!
• Laiza Mae Abarquez Cantiveros: nyAhHAhAhA..biTtr ngA..tSk3
• poeticveela: bitter talaga..nagaun ko lang na-feel..bigla ko syang namiss..as in to the highest level of kachorvahan..
• Laiza Mae Abarquez Cantiveros: wAhHHhh..yAn kAse..umiyAk kAh nAh lnG..tSk3..ilAbAs mO nAh feeL mO
• poeticveela: di ako maiyak eh..senti mode lang talaga..parang may nawawala...aiy drama..ano ba yan..wag ka nga ganyan..kasi..kasi..kasi naman eh..adik ko..hanap mo ko sibuyas baka sakaling maiyak akey..
• Laiza Mae Abarquez Cantiveros: nyAhhAA..loKA..mAs mAsArap umiyAk pAg hnD piniLit nOh...mAs mAsArp umiyAk kAse feeLng mO niLabas mO nAh lAhat ng sAma nG lOOb mO..
• poeticveela: ehh..bakit ganun di ako maiyak??abnormal yata 'tong Lacrimal gland ko eh..
• Laiza Mae Abarquez Cantiveros: nyAhHAhA...mAnhd kAh Atah..nyAHhAH
• poeticveela: ganun..may manhid bang namimiss siya??may manhid bang gusto siyang kausapin??may manhid bang gusto marinig tawa niya at boses niya??may manhid bang gusto marinig ang I Love You niya??
• Laiza Mae Abarquez Cantiveros: dAmi mO nAmAng tAnong...nAwindAng akO dUn Ah
• poeticveela: eh sa madaming tanong u-tak ko ngaun eh..ewan ko ba rin dito sa u-tak ko at heartlalouh ko ..pati ako nawiwindang.

Yung totoo?As in tell me the truth...manhid nga ba talaga ako?
O bitter lang talaga?
Alam mo yun...nung una okey lang sakin...pero habang tumatagal...

________tama na nga...saka na ko iiyak pag-feel na umiyak ng Lacrimal gland ko..pag feel na lumabas ng tears sa lacrimal duct ko...

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I gasp,

My soul whimper

I’m losing my grasp,

Horrified

I mused to stay close

Yet…you step back.

I stared at your handsome face

Your bright yellow eyes…

Almost cold pierce my soul…

Your red lips twitched a mocking grin.

I fought the urge to look away

Our gaze met…

Almost crushing my bruised heart

An obscure shadow dimmed your eyes,

It’s almost hard to fathom…

The hidden message beneath those smiles.

I shudder with a shrill,

Running through my spines

As you step again

Forward – so close

Almost touching my warm skin

Your lips brushed with mine

Letting me sip a taste of your wine

So sweet –

The kiss was soft…gentle

Yet, almost edgy

I can feel the passion

It’s burning inside.

I heard your velvet voice

Whispering in my ears

I try to hold back the tears

I held out my hand

Reaching you…

Again,

Again and again

With trembling remorse I called out your name,

But you’re gone…

Far away from me

Leaving me wounded,

Thirsty,

Hungry…

For your sweet wine still lingers in my lips.

I Love You...GOODBYE!

For the seventh time I sighed. I consciously look at my phone hoping that it will beep. I haven't slept properly for the past few days. Dark circles are around my eyes that can't deny the fact of depression I am feeling right now.

I can't let this case rest until solve but I don't have the courage to dial the number --- why...what...how...there's so many questions I needed to ask, yet I am afraid.

Fear engulf my heart like a hungry Lion growling wildly. I am hopeless, I know.

I heard my weak voice shrieked as light flooded across the room.

He is standing in front of the door. I can reflect pain in his eyes as he closely studied my hopeless condition.

He moaned, " What are you doing with yourself?"

" W-why do you care?"

" Because I---why---y-you look awful." I didn't realize I am crying 'till I felt the hot tears welling down my cheeks.

He step forward but abruptly stand back in front of the door. He looked away at me, maybe not wanting to see my tears.

" Why are you here?"

" I just wanted to say goodbye" He said still not looking at me

I whimper in silence. I couldn't stand this. It's killing me.

" But why? Why you have to say goodbye?"

"  You don't have to know. I just wanted to see you for the last time before it's all over."

" It hasn't have to end" I argued stubbornly

I looked at his face and saw the tears I didn't expected from him. In a split second I'm at his side wiping the tears I didn't know what is for.

" I love you...but I have to say goodbye" and for the last time he kissed me passionately.

I cried. What's the point? Saying I love you yet saying goodbye. Those line left a hole in my heart that is irreparable.

That was three months ago. That scene that keep on hunting my endless dreams. Now---now I am looking at his cold face. He is still beautiful despite all the pain he had suffered from his disease. I don't know. Being near him is still pointless no matter how near I am to him right now.

I can hear the endless cries around me as the soil slowly covers the casket wherein his body lies. But despite of all those noise I felt all alone. Empty.

He left me and that would be forever.

I sighed. I couldn't utter any parting words but the same words he said to me three months ago...

' I Love you...goodbye!'

Jailed

Broken dreams,

Losing hope-

I looked at the shattered mirror

There’s shadow in my face,

Blood n my hands...

I scream-

Terror flooded my heart

There’s no way to escape

Tears Fall from the sky

Trying to wash my mistake

I run-

Darkness blinded my eyes

Silence deafens my Ear.

I drop in my Knees,

My shoulder shaking with fear

I felt the cold bars

In my bare hands

I gasp...I close my eyes,

And say goodbye to the Light.