April 30, 2010

K-LOve



UNNI: Adik ka ba??

Opo adik ako.. haha adik ako sa Korean musics and koreanovela..
And love na love ko sa Rain ko.. ~~ayiihh~~



"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

My own dose

Hindi ako maganda. Hindi rin ako cute. Hindi ko rin naman nilalait ang sarili ko ng lagay na 'to...may ma-iitro lang hehe. Hindi rin sa nagyayabang pero marami na akong naging boyfriend...as in boylet, fafa in flesh at hindi lang ilusyon. Yung iba dalawang linggo, yung iba two months walang umaabot ng 6 months or one year. Yung iba on and off. Ako nakikipag-break. It's either I'm not happy sa relationship 'cause may kulang or sawa na ako doon sa tao (sama noh!?). Some even called me "play girl". Now, I guess I've gotten the dose of my own medicine...their so called "Karma".

There was this guy na umani ng curiosity galing sa lola niyo. Some of my friends warn me na if ever pumorma si guy don't I dare na i-entertain. Knowing me, they know na pasaway ako and usually decides without having second thoughts...e pasaway. So, I turn deaf ears from those concerned friendships.

He courted me. Ako naman si sagot. He's a challenge to me 'coz he's "playboy" daw  at walang pinapalagpas. Kabi-kabila ang flings kahit may girlfriend. Actually, naging honest siya sa akin na may current girlfriend siya habang nililigawan ako. Keber ang lola ninyo. Hindi naman kasi talaga ako seryoso ng mga panahong iyon. Wala lang, challenge lang talaga. During the course of our relationship kinilig ako sa ka-sweetan niya. Kiniliti ako ng mga corni and cheezi lines niya. Si ako na nag-bitiw ng salita sa mga concerned amigas na never ma-iinlab kay equally notorious playboy ay nahulog sa karisma ng huli. Well, I can't do anything about it na. So, the ever demanding me demanded for his full attention. Gusto ko ako na lang. Wala ng flings. Hindi na 'to lokohan. Totohanan na ito, yet nauwi rin sa hiwalayan ang relationship. Take not mga sistah, hindi ako ang nakipag-break si guy na.

It hurts that the memories and love still remains. Step by step... little by little, I am trying to revive this heart and hoping never to commit the same mistake again. One karma is enough! No playing around anymore, promise!


"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

April 29, 2010

Procrastinating heart




I could have done that before'
Yet I choose to delay it.
Moving on from this Heart Break
Still on procrastination...


"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

April 25, 2010

I don't Know

Why roses have thorns?
Why there’s rainbow after every rain?
Why can I see myself in the mirror?
I don’t know.

Why my heart beats?
Is the reason for me to live?
I don’t know.

Why a person needs Love?
Still, I don’t know.

There is only one thing I know.
I can’t live without you
And I don’t care why.
I don’t care what the reasons are.
As long as I am with you,
I know how to live.



"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

Hello


I want to be held by you,
Feel the grasp of your big hand in mine.
Hear your heart beat with mine.
I want to always see your warm smile,
But those smiles brought agony to my heart.
Those sensual lips---
Saying GOODBYE hurt me so much.
You promised me FOREVER,
But you left me wounded.

I always wake up feeling empty,
Looking for you,
And Waiting for you.

I called your name that night.
Begged for you to stay,
But you didn’t even bother to glance.
Still, I’m hoping
That you’ll walk through that door again
Wearing your warm smile on those sensual lips,
Saying HELLO instead of GOODBYE.


"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

Cheezzy

The sweetest lines uttered by our dream guys from movies and books... admit it, we can't help but fall in love with these cheesy lines...

"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark...and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy." -Edward Cullen, Twilight

"Our love is like a wind...I can't see it, but i sure can feel it." -Landon Carter, A walk to remember

"I was a coward running away again. But everywhere I went, you caught up with me. So, I had to come back." -Chuck Bass, Gossip Girl

"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds." -Noah Calhoun, The Notebook

"With love's wings did I o'eperch these walls; for stony limits cannot hold love out, and what love can do, that dares love attempt: therefore thy kinsmen are no stop to me." -Romeo Montague, Romeo and Juliet: Scene 2

"Mel? Mel?...If you're in there, Mel... I love you. Even if you're not there. If you can't hear me, I love you." -Jared, The Host

"I held you in my hand Wanderer, and you were so beautiful." -Ian O'Shea, The Host

"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

April 21, 2010

Sakayan


Pawis na pawis na ako sa init. Halos kalahating oras na rin akong naghihintay ng masasakyang jeep. Nalilimliman man ako ng mayabong na puno ng mangga ay hindi sapat iyon upang hindi ko maramdaman ang bangis ng El Niño ng bonggang bongga.
Ewan ko kung sinasadya ng tadhanang walang dumaang sasakyan sa parteng ito ng lugar namin to think na doon ang talagang sakayan ng mga pasaherong lalabas ng village na ito. O baka naman sadyang malas lang ang magkaroon ng balat sa puwet.
‘Kapag minamalas ka nga naman’ ang mahina kong usal. Mabuti na lamang at medyo maaga akong umalis ng aming tahanan kung hindi ay tiyak na mahuhuli ako sa aking klase.
Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng aking pag-sisintir ng may matanaw akong dalawang lalaking naka t-shirt na green na papalapit sa kinaruruonan ko----- ay teka, dadaan lang pala! Ibinalik ko ang tingin sa hawak kong cellphone ng medyo malapit na sila sa gawi ko. Ayoko namang mahalata nilang naglalaway ako sa kaguwapuhan nila. Mula sa kunwa’y busy-busihan kong diwa ay may narinig akong nagsalita.
‘Hi miss, pwede makuha number mo?’ nag-angat ako ng tingin at pa-cute na ngumiti sa dalawang lalaki sa aking harapan.
Ang landi mo --------- bulong ng isang parte ng utak ko.
‘Zero-nine-zer---------‘ nabitin ang pagsasalita ko ng may mahagip ang mata kong padaan na jeep. ‘Shit!’ napamura ako sa isip ko. Wrong timing naman ito.
Muli akong ngumiti sa dalawa at hindi na tinapos pa ang aking sasabihin saka mabilis na sumakay sa pamapasaherong sasakyan na panay ang busina at akala mo’y mauubusan ng pasahero.
Marahas akong napabuntong hininga ng makarating sa school.
‘Maria!’ narinig kong tawag ng best friend ko na nakatambay sa lounge kasama si yummylicious crush.
Nakasimangot akong lumapit sa knauupuan nila at parang armalite ang bungangang agad sinimulan magkwento sa bestfriend ko kung anong nangyari.
Nagulat ako. Nanlaki ang mata. Nang imbes na si bestfriend ay si crush ang nag-react ng bongga.
‘Sino ba yang lalaking yan? Saan ko ba makikita yan ng masuntok?’ ang seryosong tanong nito. Tumingin ako sa bestfriend ko na nagkibit balikat lamang.
‘anong problema mo?’ ang baling ko kay crush.
‘wala akong problema.’ Seryoso pa ring wika nito
‘E, bakit ganyan ang tono mo?’ nag-iinit na rin ang ulo ko sa tono nyang iyon
‘Wala nga akong problema!’ muling wika nito saka nagdadabog na nagwalk-out. Aba! Daig pa noon si Ruffa Guttierez ah. Anong problema ng lalaking yun? Ano to LQ?! Para namang may mens siya kung maka-arte!!
Nakangiting lumingon sakin ang bestfriend ko, ‘Nagseselos crush mo!’
‘Huh?’ buong araw kong iniisip ang sinabing iyon ng bestfriend ko hanggang sa naka-uwi na ako. As in windang ako. Sa totoo lang ay Matagal na akong head over heels diyan kay crush kaya kung tama nga ang sinasabi ni bestfriend ay wala naman siguro masamang umaasa.
 Matutulog na sana ako ng mag-vibrate ang phone ko. Isang text message galing kay crush.
W8 4 me 2morow jan sa skayan sa inyo
Super reply ako kung bakit pero hindi na ito muling nag-text.
Ever wonder ang beauty ko kinabukasan pero sinunod ko pa rin siya. Pagdating ko sa abangan ng sasakyan ay nandoon na si crush, nakangiti at hinihintay ako----- mukhang wala na siyang topak------ sa kabilang daan ay naroon yung dalawang papalicious-green-shirt-guys yesterday. Tinignan ko si crush, mas makalaglag panty panga pa rin si crush.
‘bakit mo ako sinusundo?’ lakas loob kung tanong kahit pa nga parang jelly ace ang tuhod kong nanlalambot.
‘Para hindi na ako nagseselos.’ Nakangiting sabi nito na kumindat pa. Napatalon ang puso ko sa kilig at parang gusto ng lumabas mula sa aking rib cage.
Ano ‘to joke?
Nawiwindang na naman ako kakaisip, ‘totoo?’ tanong ko para di na ako maloka
‘Oo, nagseselos ako sa kanila’ saka tumingin sa direksyon nila papalicious-green-shirt-guys na nakatingin din pala sa amin. ‘kaya sumakay ka na’ muling wika nito na iminuwestra pa ang kanyang kotse.
Tulala p rin ako pero nagawa kong makasakay. Nang maka-upo na ako sa passenger seat ay bumungad sa aking ang isang pink teddy bear at 3 stem of roses na may kasamang card.
I LOVE YOU!
Napangiti ako sa sarili ko. Hindi ko alam kung kanino ako magpapasalamat para sa pangyayaring ito, sa El Niño ba, sa jeep, sa dalawang papalicious-green-shirt-guys, sa kadaldalan ko, sa pagdidilang anghel ng bestfriend ko, o sa balat ko sa puwet? Ang tanging alam ko lang ay masaya ako lalo na nagayong nakalapat ang mga labi ni crush sa labi ko.

"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

April 4, 2010

He is Love

He is Love by Anjhe Matt Trees

He is an artist.

He paints the stars,
And sketches my heart.
He can erase the pain from his work.
He puts pastels in the black.

He is a poet.

He speaks the language of love,
He writes what he means,
And he means what he writes.
He pours himself into my fingers,
And I can be his pen.

He is a reader.

He can read my face,
But he doesn't have to,
He could just read my thoughts.
Better yet, read my heart
Like an open book.

He is a magician.

He can reverse science,
Reverse the science that turned my heart to ashes,
And make me whole again.
He can make black into white
And darkness to light.

He is an author.

He wrote my story,
Still Work in Progress.
When it's done,
He'll put it on the shelf
And always remember it.

He is love.

He is grace.

He is peace.

He is everything. 


"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

April 3, 2010

Three Words

I was hesitant. Afraid that you might leave once I said those words. True to this vague assumption, the moment I open my mouth and uttered those three words you run off like a coward leaving my hear wounded. I don't even give a damn about my pride. This ego of mine seem to know no shame. Though, my soul even so used to pain hadn't became numb at all. It keeps on bleeding not knowing how it can be stop.

I have taken the risk of saying 'I Love You' and what did I get in return? Nothing. Not even a single 'Sorry' from you. I would've endure your coldness or blank stares, but turning your back on me was much worst than I imagine it would be.

Now, I'm alone.
Lonely, but with no regrets.

"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

Guilty or Innocent?!

I'm a certified Facebook addict. One of those stay up late, one of those who comments/likes others' status, and one of those who posts anything even it's total garbage. Just recently I had been tagged in a note entitled Guilty or Innocent? and here how it goes:

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
(So people reading this, if you want an explanation.. comment.)

Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens.


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Danced on a table in a bar?
-guilty

Ever told a lie?
- guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back?
-guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
-guilty

Kissed a picture?
-guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
-guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school?
- guilty

Held a snake?
- innocent

Been suspended from school?
- innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
- innocent

Stolen from a store?
- innocent

Been fired from a job?
- innocent

Done something you regret?
- guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
- innocent

Kissed in the rain?
- innocent

Sat on a roof top?
- guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
- guilty

Sang in the shower?
- guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
- innocent

Shaved your head?
- innocent

Slept naked?
- guilty :D

Been in a band?
- innocent

Shot a gun?
- innocent

Donated Blood?
- innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
- innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
- guilty

Still love someone you shouldn't?
- guilty

Have/had a tattoo?
- innocent

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
-guilty

Been too honest?
- guilty

Ruined a surprise?
- guilty

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can't walk afterwards?
-guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
- innocent

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
- guilty

Joined a pageant?
- innocent

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
-guilty

DATING Someone?
- guilty

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
- guilty

A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney fare?
- guilty

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
- guilty


April 1, 2010

Magkapatid

Namulat ang isipan natin na walang kinikilalang ama. Namuhay tayo sa piling ni lola at malayo sa halik at yakap ni ina. Ganun pa man masaya pa rin ako dahil palagi kang naroon sa tabi ko. Magkasama sa harutan, kulitan,at kalokohan.

Natatandaan mo pa ba? Noon kapag pinapatulog tayo ni lola sa hapon hindi ba't nakapikit lamang tayo noon at hinihintay matapos ang paborito niyang programa sa radyo na Matud Nila hudyat upang tayo ay gumising sa ating [kunwaring] pagtulog.

Paborito mong maglaro ng lutu-lutuan at bahay-bahayan; ako si nanay, yung crush mong si Pot-pot ang tatay, at ikaw ang anak namin. Lagi kong nakikita ang ngiti sa mga labi mo sa tuwing hinahalikan ka niya sa noo kapag kunwari'y matutulog ka na. Lihim akong natatawa dahil sa mura mong edad ay marunong ka ng magnasa humanga. Minsan nga lang ay naiinis ako sa iyo dahil sa tuwinay inaagaw mo ang manyika ko. At Ako? Ako ang kinagagalitan sapagkat ako raw ang nakatatanda at siyang dapat magparaya. Sa umpisa'y magagalit ako sa iyo ngunit maya-maya pa'y magkasundo na ulit tayo.

Nang tumuntong ako ng sekondarya lumayo ang loob mo sa akin. Kung dati'y ako ikaw ang lagi kong kasama ngayo'y puro barkada at ang nobyo ko na. Kung dati'y ikaw ang sinasabihan ko ng mga hinaing at problema ko sa buhay ngayo'y "the Bar" na. Hindi mo na rin ako kasamang maglaro ng lutu-lutuan at bahay-bahayan, sa halip ang pampalipas oras ko ay magpaganda, magmanicure-pedicure, magtext at magtelebabad. Ayaw na rin kitang katabi sa kama sa katwirang ako ay malaki na.

Ako ang may kasalanan hindi ba?

OO, magkasama nga tayo sa iisang bahay, sa iisang bubong natutulog, sa iisang hapag kumakain, at sa iisang banyo naliligo ngunit para tayong estranghero sa isa't isa. Naroon ang distansya at ang pader na hindi ko man lang namalayang naiharang mo na pala. Mula sa distansyang iyon, sa malayo ay pinagmamasdan kita. Umaasa ako na balang araw ay matatawid ko ang pagitang iyon sa ating dalawa upang maibalik ang dati nating samahan.

Akala ko nga hindi na mangyayari iyon. Nakakatawa. Kailangan mo lamang palang masawi sa pag-ibig upang matibag ko ang pader na nakaharang sa ating dalawa. Nakita kita noong umiiyak sa isang sulok nagdadalamhati para sa puso mong nagkaluray-luray para sa isang pag-ibig na inaakala mong tunay. Naroon ang hesitasyon sa aking parte ngunit sa kaibuturan ko ay masa nanaig ang pagnanais kong maibsan ang sakit na nadarama mo. Niyakap kita, pilit pinayapa ang magulo mong utak. Hanggang sa maka-recover ka ako ang kasama mo, naroon ako at hindi kita iniwan tulad ng dati noong maliliit pa tayo. Sa wakas natawid ko ang distansya at natibag ang pader na pumagitan sa ating dalawa.

Ngayon, gagradweyt ka na at ako pa ang magsasabit ng iyong medalya. Nagagalak ako para sa tagumpay mong ito. Ako bilang ama at ina, kaibigan, at kapatid mo.

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Enclosed was the note I have given to my sister during her graduation.
Since our innocence we've been together [always] despite all of those bickering and messing around. You might think that I'm a bitch but all that I do are for your own good. You've done your best not only to please me, but also to make our mom happy. You might not have reached or exceed my expectations, but still I am PROUD of you. You'll always be my little sister and I'll always love you.
"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."

Seeker

I saw myself in a Quidditch Cup, a game where I have to struggle hard to stay put in the broom. I have to be strong and attentive in seeking the snitch. I have to stand guard on my post and be a good keeper of my precious knowledge that I can use as a weapon to chase the darkest wizard of my past. I shall not let a scar scare me or even let a Dementor chill my soul.

This just the start of the triwizarding tournament. I need more strength to face all the hexes, jinxes, curses,and spells that'll thwart my may to the triwizarding cup.  

This is just platform 9 3/4 where my adventures would start in the wizardry world, wherein many clever witches and warlocks would choose to hurt or like me.

I'm just glad that along the way I met friends, friends that no matter who I am would stay behind my back in times of being a hero or being a coward. In times of failure in every potion Severus Snape would give. In times of success whenever I manage to look straight into Draco Malfoy's eyes. This things: strength,beliefs and my friends together with my family would guide me in the maze, a maze where things isn't fair.You have to turn back to see if your in the right path.

I'll just always bear in mind that the mocking songs of the merpeople and the dashing beauty of the veelas could sometimes bring me to the trouble and give me pain.

But i can't just wait in to be in the yule ball. I know things would be wonderful even won-won (Ron Weasley) wouldn't be there (because of his stupid old party dress) or even Victor Krum wouldn't take notice of me, I can see my Harry waiting in the middle of the crowd.

Hay! Enough of this dreaming. I should be back in the game in time to get a glimpse of the snitch. I know, we can win...I can win in my struggle to reach my snitch, my dreams.

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Disclaimer: I don't want to be accused of plagiarism here so I would clear myself as early as now. This post had been inspired by Harry Potter books written by J.K. Rowling, which had been a blockbuster movie. I'm an avid fan, thus explains how I came up with this piece. This had been written Four years ago [that long] and I thought it had been lost till I found it lying neatly under the pile of my messy clothes.

I would also like to apologize for some grammatical errors *smile*


"Lahat ng bilihin nagmamahalan na...tayong dalawa nalang ang hindi..."